Man all this is making me depressed. I used to be like that, I had a lot of acquiantances but very few friends. Then I kind of broke out of my shell and now I'm real good friens with all of the "cool kids." I like my life a lot more now, and though I occasionally get off-track and start thinking about how I'm so much worse than my brother (I'll get to that later), I always recover now. I have a very healthy social life and am enjoying myself much more. I have a ton of friends, too many to handle, cuz every night all these people call me to do stuff cuz they consider me a good friend but they don't all get along, or wherever I'm going I can't invite everyone. It's tough to deal with and I usually end up feeling bad about it. I have no girlfriend, but I'm gonna get one soon. I just have to find the right one.
Now on to my brother.... UGH... I get so mad just thinking about it. He's basically the hottest guy ever, gets any girl at all that he wants, no exaggeration at all. He doesn't know what rejection is like. He's just perfect in every way, it's amazing. Extremely good looking, incredibly intelligent, really funny, pretty athletic. Not fair. I am a lot skinner than him and am taking much longer to grow (he has real broad shoulder and I have narrow, etc.) He looked like an 18 year old by sophomore year, and I still look like a sophomore in junior year. I'm a good looking kid, but nothing compared to him. Not fair at all. I also have weird problems like a deformed rib cage (the left side sticks out like 2 inches, making me look more skinny which sucks). I also have acid reflux, and he doesn't. If I didn't have such a superstar brother, then I wouldn't be disappointed at all with who I am. I have tons of great friends, including all the really hot girls. But I always wonder, what if I were as hot as my brother... I would be getting those girls, not just being good friends with them. I can only hope that when I finally grow, I'll be a little better looking...
